When it comes right down to it, an author or an artist always has an excellent reason for why they write or draw problematic things. It’s an incredibly personal reason, and the details will change from author to author or artist to artist, but at it’s core it’s really the same reason why anyone writes or draws anything and we should all respect that.
✨They wanted to.✨
It’s pretty much the best reason I can think of to create something, and I know it’s central to everything I’ve ever been proud of making.
being alive is to have life telling you ‘ok now i will ask you to be brave. now i will ask you to be brave. now i will ask you to be brave’ over and over and over until you learn it & then have to learn it again
because I haven’t seen a whole heap of decent information about this… I thought I’d do a beginner’s guide to dissociation
disorders that can cause dissociation include:
- DID
- OSDD
- PTSD
- depression
- OCD
- BPD
- DPDR
- anxiety
- eating disorders
- some people also experience dissociation due to chronic pain
being dissociated can feel like, but is not limited to:
- feeling disconnected from the world
- feeling “blurry”, “buzzy”, “foggy”, or “out of it”
- not feeling any emotions
- not feeling any physical pain
- not remembering whole periods of time
- feeling like you’re floating outside of your body
- your brain constantly going in and out of focus
dissociation is generally broken down into two categories:
- derealisation: the feeling that the world around you is unreal, foggy, or just out of reach
- depersonalisation: the feeling of being outside of yourself, or of not feeling real
I hope this is a helpful post, and that I’ve made people more aware of what dissociation actually is. if you have any follow-up questions, please feel free to ask!
There are normal kinds of dissociation, which almost everybody does. For instance, you can be driving down the road and suddenly realize you don’t really remember the last two miles because you were thinking about something else. That’s normal dissociation; almost everybody does that.
However, some levels of “phasing out” can be really disruptive to your life. Here’s an online test you can take to see how much you’re dissociating.
…to wake up.
All around Kamukura was bloodshed. Corpses littered the streets as laughter and screams echoed in the alleys and from shattered windows. Manic, hideous laughter that mingled with the hideous sight of gore and flame.
He watched it dispassionately as the flames twisted and turned, walking through what felt like a river of blood. Buildings twisted unnaturally before crumbling and cascading to the ground with loud rumbles of stone and metal slamming down.
The world was over. And lording high above it was a silhouette of a pigtailed girl with arms outstretched, eclipsing even the sun. He looked up at her, something stirring deep inside.
Emotions, what he thought was long dead. Awe, Hatred, Interest.
Fear. His hand went to his chest to feel the thudding of his heartbeat as a frown crossed his face.
Unusual.
Even more unusual were the strings of blood that stretched and dripped from his hand as he pulled it away. Looking down, he saw his chest opened and his heart gone from the cavity within.
Blood pooled at the ground beneath his feet as his brow furrowed even more. Somehow he could still hear the heartbeat.
A smile crossed the massive shade of Junko Enoshima’s face as a hand reached from the sky towards Kamukura as he stood frozen in confused horror….
Only to feel the warmth of lips upon his, a kiss. And not from the shade above…but a warm presence before him. A warm presence that pulled Hajime Hinata from the depths of sleep, and into the bleary light.
As he blinked the bleariness away, he became aware of the lips against his, as a freckled face resolved into view.
Fuyuhiko broke the kiss, wiping his am over his mouth with a leer. He had his bad eye closed, not yet having put on the eyepatch he often wore, and looked down at Hajime with his good eye.
“you were having a fucking nightmare again,” he snapped. “woke me up with all your babbling, too.”
His expression softened, as he put a hand on Hajime’s chest. “Thought I’d do you a favor and wake you up too.”

