Um…I hope you don’t mind, but reading all these posts about past lives and stuff has me really curious about something. Before you “woke up”, did you ever feel…wrong? Out of place? Like the life you were living was just…missing something? Like no matter what this world gives you, something is always going to be missing?I figured I was just mentally unwell. Delusional from all the trauma, or something. But both the idea of being a singlet and the idea of this life being the only one feels so…wrong, somehow. I should have magic. Not grand laser powers or flight or anything, but…something. There should be gods, and magic, and ways to tie the two together. I can’t really explain it. I’ve never quite felt like just one person, either. Even if I mostly don’t feel a distinct “shift” in who I am, it’s more like…I’m nobody? Not that I don’t know who I am, just that I don’t exist. Other times, there’s a clear and distinct feeling of somebody being there with me, somebody there to hold my hand and help me do things like cook, when I’m too anxious/unstable to do it “by myself”I guess I just wanted to ask if you’d ever experienced anything like that? And if you had any advice for connecting to a system, if there is any, that you can’t really…find.
Hi anon.
Feeling wrong, and feeling out of place are exactly the feelings that I’d describe having before we awakened. What you’re talking about sounds pretty much like exactly what we went through.
Feelings like the world isn’t quite right, like we should be somewhere, or someone else. Feelings like we weren’t alone in our own body, or like we weren’t ourselves.
If you’re having feelings like this, I’d urge you to look into spiritual fictionkin questioning, and soulbonding.
Some great places to start are @fromfiction and fictionkin.org which have really good resources on questioning and figuring out if you’re fictionkin.
Also please feel free to send us more asks any time, or to DM us if you feel like you want to talk.
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