BlackHeart Biohazards

Re: this post, I’ve had sexual intrusive thoughts my entire life. You name a disgusting sexual thing you could do, I probably had an intrusive thought about it in middle school. I’m an adult in my 20s now, and while therapy, medication, and generally being in a much better place in my life should get the majority of the credit for those thoughts becoming less prevalent, I think that reading fiction with those sorts of topics as an outlet has helped me too. I can read a fic with incest or noncon or sexualized gore and indulge those thoughts, and then put them back on a shelf when I’m done reading. I’m not saying this can work for everyone, quite the opposite in fact; some people need to entirely remove things that trigger them from their lives and that’s ok. But to see this person who I assume is quite young struggling with such intense self-hatred for reading fiction that contains things that they would never actually do in real life or think is ok in real life breaks my heart. I know that if I read the kind of fiction that I read now when I was younger, I’d probably feel the same way that OP does. I hope that even is they aren’t able to accept that what they did is not morally wrong, at least they can stop feeling such intense self-hatred over it.