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One of my favorite things about the proship community/problematic ship communities is this beautiful, human reclamation of trauma?
The stereotype of proshippers coping with sexual abuse is a stereotype for a reason. It’s not universal, but trauma is pretty common in the community. You won’t ever get the same experience as you do in trauma therapy, but I am so in awe of everyday people who have been hurt reclaiming their own joy.
I’m only speaking from my own experience, but I get a little weary of the constant black cloud that colors my identity as a survivor. Yes, I was taken advantage of. I was hurt in ways that should have landed several people in prison and the same things happen to people every day without cosmic justice. But I am not a stormcloud of hurt, and fuck you I’m going to experience joy and catharsis in a way that still acknowledges the bad things that happened. I find there’s a way survivors can combine their terror with joy in a way that makes non-survivors uncomfortable. For me, this just happens to be in fandom.
Even if I’m not in your fandom, I see you reclaiming your joy and it makes me so happy. Keep doing what you’re doing and keep healing in the way the world doesn’t understand. It fills me with this deep sense of distant love.
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