BlackHeart Biohazards

Thank you for talking to me about heart homes. The term was impactful enough to send me on a research binge and I not only learned a lot about my own kintypes and stuff, but also I got on a rabbit hole of plurality and tulpamancy. I think I’ve been experiencing something similar to Tulpas, especially with one of my…alters? Headmates? People? Alter is the word I’ve always used but I’m not sure it fits (these people aren’t versions of me, y’know?). He was originally just…an imaginary friend. A comfort when I was lonely. I desperately needed to not be alone, and I made a friend who could be that. And eventually he sorta…started existing on his own? I can still sort of control him (which I’ve learned is apparently called puppeting?) but at the same time he has…facts I didn’t make, like his name and the fact he likes those big boomboxes and the colors yellow and orange (which I typically don’t like so idk where that come from) The others seem to be a trauma case and…I’m not sure where the other one came from. My earliest memory of her is when I got too stressed out to clean but had to clean and just kinda…snapped? So I’m not sure. But I’m excited, too. There might be answers somewhere for me! 🩷✉️ (featuring 💛✉️, 🩵✉️, and❤️✉️)