My friend, it sounds like you’re struggling and going through a lot. I hope that gets easier soon, and there’s healing in the future for you.

You are always allowed to enjoy problematic content.

Everyone is allowed to enjoy problematic content, without any limits other than what they place on themselves for their own comfort.

It is okay to enjoy problematic content.

You are allowed to enjoy problematic content for any reason

There is no bar or threshold that you have to pass.

Enjoying problematic content for any reason is morally neutral, it doesn’t make you a bad or good person.

I promise.