BlackHeart Biohazards

So there’s this song (PYRITE GIRL – by RIP using 鏡音リン [Kagamine Rin]) about how trauma can make you feel broken and “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and how some people use that to make themself more appealing or interesting or whatever.The title is a little bit layered. “Pyrite” is a name for “Fool’s Gold”, and the gold bit calls back to the Japanese practice of Kintsugi, whereas instead of throwing out broken dishes, you fix them (usually with a tar/adhesive, and then paint the cracks gold) to make them more beautiful for having been broken, and fixed. The Pyrite, then, calls to how the girl in the song is constantly trying to break and reform herself to be perfect, to be likeable and loveable and good. But, of course, a bowl with golden cracks is beautiful because it was fixed with love and care, not because somebody smashed it, so rather than being made of gold, she’s made of Pyrite.Idk I just…this song hits so hard for me. It calls to a time when I tried to break myself down until people would love me. It’s great. I wanted to tell someone about it.

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