Hey friend. I’m sorry you’re struggling right now. Every plural experience is different, but I hope I can give you some helpful advice here.

I can’t tell you if you’re plural or not– only the person or persons experiencing existence from your body and brain can do that.

What I can tell you is that it is a common plural experience to maintain hazy memories, continuous or disjointed, even when not in control or not full control of the body. It is a common experience to only feel completely out of control at certain times.

I can also tell you that having hazy or disjointed memories, and feelings like you are not in control of your body is not a common non-plural experience.

I don’t know that I can explain to you what being plural means any more than I can explain what being non-plural means. For every person and every plural system, it is different.

I would say that my best stab at defining what it means to be plural is to live in a relationship with many more people than simply your ‘self’ sharing your body and your life.

Please feel free to send a follow up ask if you would like!