Seeking to prevent disabled people from being born is part of eugenics.
I don’t have the resources or the spoons to get deeper into the discussion than that, even including my own opinions on the subject.
If you’re interested in learning more about the history and tenants of eugenics, and why eugenics is bad, I strongly recommend researching the topic starting with the wikipedia article and moving on to sources listed there.
My friend, I’m not sure what you expect me to say here, or what your intentions were when sending this message. I kind of hope it’s bait, and not a sincere request for help but I am going to treat it as sincere in any case.
Anything that makes you feel suicidal is bad, for you.
If something makes you feel suicidal you should do your best to keep yourself away from it, so that it cannot harm you.
Practice self care and allow yourself to accept that some materials are triggering for you and that you shouldn’t interact with them.
That doesn’t make you bad, and it doesn’t make the material bad.
Just like a food allergy, there are some things that some people have to avoid even though other people find them tasty and fun.
