BlackHeart Biohazards

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Medical trauma is real. And it’s valid.

Medical trauma is feeling sick and afraid at every medical appointment because as you sit in the exam room and all you can think about are the times you’ve been invalidated, disbelieved, mistreated, or hospitalized and you’re scared it will happen again. It’s real and terrifying.

Medical trauma is also not making medical appointments, and not even trying to get the care that you need, because you have been invalidated, disbelieved and mistreated so many times that you don’t have any expectation that it will be any different, even with a new doctor, or in a new practice, or in a new city. 

Medical trauma is also being so terrified of exposing yourself to yet another bad experience that you end up seriously ill with something that didn’t have to take such a toll and could’ve been addressed much sooner and much more easily — if you were able to be listened to and treated well.

I don’t like that tumblr posts say “0 notes” now it was better when it was just blank.

“Hello, Stanley. Funny to meet you here, isn’t it? Outside the narrative confines of our usual environment?

Why, you might have been thinking to yourself that you’d never see me out here.

Well, hear me, anyway.

Never hear my voice again. Did it make you sad to think that, Stanley?

Or you might have felt safe, might you, living behind that pair eyes, carried around in that skull. Far away from my soothing guidance.

I’m thinking of you now, Stanley. I’m thinking of all the times we had together.

I’m always thinking of you.

I miss you, Stanley.

Why don’t you come back, and we can play again?”