While I was in inpatient the main group therapy guy (who looks weirdly like Mads Mikkelsen) asked me what I aimed to do with my writing and I said, “Make people suffer. Some good, cathartic suffering.” Which I’ve struggled with recently because I felt like that was a kind of malicious goal (since, like my friend Dirk said once, I always need to do the math so that I = bad). And he was very pleased with that answer. He said that it was a good thing, that I was introducing children to suffering and the ways that people process suffering in a healthy space (since it’s not real) and that makes children feel (and he pointed to the word “safe” on the whiteboard). He told me I was a suffering person who could reach out through my suffering to help others with theirs, and that was good, that was important, it was transformative, and I was protecting children.
I just sat there fighting back tears and quietly said “Oh…I never thought of it like that.”
Honestly I like this, imagine you’re having sex with your f/o and you both have sharp nails and teeth so when you bite and scratch it bleeds easily, so now you’re both just fucking with the sheets wet with blood and other fluids and the blood smears covering both your bodies and it’s nice.
And for aftercare you both tend to each others wounds and lick up the blood and it’s cute and romantic.
Hey! This is your friendly reminder that all proship people belong in the self ship community.
You are welcome here. You belong here. You make this community of ours much brighter with your presence. The self ship community would be a rather dull place without you in it!
Thank you for being here. Your f/os love you! Keep being you! ❤
