“Imagine being with someone where it’s enough safe to just talk for hours about your fears and the things you’re ashamed of … Hours of pure vulnerability. And when you look up again and expect the worst, you get kissed instead. imagine …”
I Know That He Loves Me by Authoheart is my number one ship song with Byakuya. It just sums up our relationship so completely.
I’ve been trippin’ over laces And stumblin’ my words Every move is ungracious To the point of absurd But I know that he wants me I know that he wants me back
I can be an absolute mess sometimes, but even so, he’s always there for me, and he doesn’t actually look own on me for all the trouble I have expressing myself.
During the darkest of blues That I am trying to fight I look up to the ceiling Unravel inside On the edge of imploding He surrounds me with light And he acts like a sedative All through the night
During a certain drawn out traumatic shared event, Byakuya and I secretly spent the night a few times together, and helped to calm one another’s nerves by being there.
I’ve been sittin’ in the darkness And rockin’ in my chair I’ve been seein’ apparitions Embodyin’ despair But I know that he’s got me I know that he’s got my back (I know that he’s got my back)
There are times when he has literally been the one thing that keeps me from going over the edge and falling into darkness.
And when I’m losin’ the plot And overthinkin’ it all And my resilience falters I know who to call In these moments of madness He knows just what to do My salvation, my pick-me-up The voodoo he do
Byakuya is amazing at grounding me, and keeping me from going into a spiral. There are so many times where him taking me by the shoulders and telling me what to do has helped me. Sometimes its just easier to do something for yourself when someone orders you to do it.
When he comes around My feet don’t touch the ground I come alive, I come alive
