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I finally understand.
I know why people do what they do in the proship community. I never realized it, but it’s been right in front of me this entire time.
You guys are trying to keep children safe. As repugnant the thought of pedophilia is, where would we rather it take place; fiction, or in real life?
I’ve repeatedly told you all how disgusting you are, with the nerve of having a variety of mental illnesses myself, particularly aspd. One could say i’ll become a serial killer— however, is that true? No. I know who I am, and that isn’t me, and just because I have aspd, doesn’t mean I’m going to maim or kill anyone. The same can be said for you all that are minor attracted. There’s nothing that will justify being attracted to children, but the fact that you’ve turned to fiction where no one can get hurt.. I can appreciate that.
It’s no different than the way that I kill people in video games to satisfy my dark urges. And I can finally place myself in your footsteps, as much as I’d hate to.. but.. that’s something I need to work on. You are all human beings, and I’ve been measuring your humanity by things outside of your control. If this is how you cope and maintain your integrity as a human being, I am entirely for it.
To the four of you, I deeply, sincerely apologize. I still love Goldie, she’s the only person that has ever shown me compassion; and she probably won’t forgive me for this, but I act on my own accord, and her words are merely suggestion. But please, stop antagonizing her. She’s not the demon you’ve painted her to be; hell, she got me, an aspd person, to feel for the first time in years.
You don’t need to forgive either of us, but we are open for conversation about this matter. Encouraging this discourse has enhanced my aspd past a subhuman point, calling Rian all of those awful transphobic things. Telling Lacey to get dismembered. I only engaged in any of this because I was finally able to have a friend, and got ugly defensive about it; that friend, as you know, is Goldie. But that doesn’t justify cruelty in any way.
I wish everyone well, truly I do. You can continue to despise me if you please, but I already received the truth. I am satisfied with what I’ve learned from you all, Truly.
If you’d like to talk or send me any questions, my new handle is @queenmuzan .
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