I’m starting to get really, genuinely frustrated with myself that I just can’t make narumitsu click in my head, independent of Maya. I see narumayo, and I see mitsumayo, but every time I sit down to write narumitsu, they repel like opposite magnets and I don’t understand what’s happening and why I can’t get there.
I don’t understand why every time I put these two in a room together (in my head, in a fic, etc) they only argue, or flirt, or talk at cross purposes, or banter. I just can’t seem to get to a solid, foundational relationship where they rely on one another and trust each other outside the courtroom. It doesn’t click and I don’t understand why. I put these men in a situation and it just doesn’t work for me.
Everyone else seems to see this beautiful, tender, trusting and supportive relationship and I want to see it too, I want to be there! So why is my narumitsu always toxic, and distant and vaguely bitter and hurt?
I just don’t understand it, and I don’t know how I can get there without the “cheat” of having Maya knock their heads together and solve all their emotional intimacy problems.
(this is actually really personal and like I said frustrating, so I am tagging this ship hate/narumitsu hate just so no one who doesn’t want to see it sees it. I obviously like narumitsu and I’m not looking to make anyone upset, or get into an argument here I’m just venting my personal feelings. That said, feel free to respond if you have anything to say.)
