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This blog is going to be a year old next month.
I, Toko (😼🔪) started the blog when I wanted to get the self shipping community.
Self shipping, and self inserts–before they had a separate community, and then were just an element of fandom– were how I started in fandom, back when I was a teen in the early 2000s.
I didn’t know the self shipping community was a thing until around 2 years ago.
Around 2 years ago, while I had been blogging a lot about one of my kintypes, I ran into a guy who self shipped with that kintype of mine.
I got a big crush on him through his s/i and his self ship content with my kintype.
I followed him for months.
I promised myself I’d only interact with him anonymously, because I didn’t want to make things weird for either of us.
But through anon, yeah, I started flirting with him a bit.
Then one day he updated to say he had covid.
He never updated again after that.
His penultimate post was just a reblog, about how much online connections can mean to someone.
So I kinda got into the self shipping community to fill the void that he left behind. To honor his memory.
I barely knew him, and he barely knew me.
But I loved him in a way.
I want to put more love in the world. To fill the empty spaces we all touch.
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