Anon, I am so sorry that happened to you.

I was really hesitant to join the self ship community when I learned about it last year, because at the time, my most intense f/o was a high school student (Mukuro) and i had seen so much hostility from some people about that kind of thing.

You absolutely did not deserve any of the abuse or harassment that you received and I hope you know that.

I hope that you can break through those feelings of self loathing and find joy with your F/O again. There is always space for you in the proselfship community.

Liking a character who is canonically underage doesn’t make you a pedophile, and almost no one in the world would even suggest that it does. Fancops are the outliers.