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Wow I really spit, when I emotionally spiral.

This is a journal entry from last night, edited for clarity and to not point fingers at specific people, but at ideology. I was really angry. And I try not to show that anger on this account but I think, at least this time, it’s important and drives the point home. General content warnings for talking about trauma, harassment and victim blaming.

I know it’s not relevant now, now if you’re being yelled at by somebody for writing/ making art of something “problematic” they’re more likely to be anti-recovery, and tell you to quit therapy or whatever you use to help yourself altogether and instead find a cult “group” that can help you find a coping mechanism that doesn’t make them uncomfortable! Either that or accuse you of not being traumatized at all. Because no “actual” trauma victim would ever do anything to makes them personally uncomfortable!

But back in my day, as I saw this whole thing start, if you said that you used fiction as a coping mechanism, they would demand you to out yourself as a survivor to them like fucking cops in order to gatekeep if you could write fiction or not. I saw people pour their fucking hearts out in posts saying how specifically they were traumatized and why the fiction they consumed helped with that trauma. Even going to far as to psychoanalyze themselves to try and be given the freedom and pass to ship without getting harassed.

In the end though? It doesn’t fucking matter. I don’t need to be a victim for other people to mind their own fucking business and curate their own goddamn experiences. Outing yourself as a survivor makes yourself VULNERABLE. It gives other people the ability to not only attack and harass you with said trauma, but also allows them to doubt your story and victim blame. It is nobodies fucking job to scrutinize and check what another person can and can’t do in fucking fiction. And in the end, it didn’t actually matter if you were a victim or a “dirty freak” in their eyes because you still got harassed. And they could never even handle the fucking thought that you could have fallen under both categories in their false fucking dichotomies. And frankly? Nobody is fucking owed that type of information at all, especially to use that sensitive information to categorize and gate-keep people from being able to do whatever the fuck they’d like in fiction freely.

I’m angry, I’m so upset at how much information people gave up in order to try and stop harassment campaigns against them. When the answer should have always been “it’s not ANY of your damn business, so fuck right off to the hole you crawled out of.” It should have never fucking come to this point where people had to give up whether they were a victim or not, when there are no sources or anything to suggest that fiction impacts reality to the degree that antis think it does. The burden of proof lies with anti’s and anti’s only.

If you see this is posted, It’s because I got fed up with the fact that these fucking people were able, ALLOWED to ask this shit without being fucking reprimanded and told to fuck off like they should have been. And that their movement has moved the goalposts from “I need to see your survivor card to determine if you are allowed this freedom.” To “this is unhealthy in my unprofessional opinion and I am going to harass you for it even though its not any of my fucking business in the first place, and it’s only because I personally find your existence and your coping mechanisms disgusting.”