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What do you mean “clinical”? Do you mean it’s language used by diagnosed DID systems, or is it like transmeds who use weird language to gatekeep who’s “really” trans?I keep hearing voices sometimes. I’m really excited to think I might actually have people up here in my head, but even that feels shameful because I’ve always heard “You shouldn’t want this, it’s hellish. You’re fucked up for wanting to have a system. You’re erasing the trauma it’s given me.”I…don’t feel singular. I never have. I’ve never felt like I’m just me. I’ve always felt people behind me, hand on my shoulder, someone taking my hand. Someone holding me when I desperately, desperately needed someone I could trust to not abandon me the way everyone else had. Facets, I called them. Masks, even though they felt so, so different to myself.But because I can’t find them, because it’s strange and vague feelings here and there, it feels…wrong to be excited? Wrong to be happy or to finally feel like things make sense. Like I’m still not allowed somewhere that might give me answers.
– πŸ‰πŸ’Œ

by on January 19, 2023 at 12:51 am
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What do you mean “clinical”? Do you mean it’s language used by diagnosed DID systems, or is it like transmeds who use weird language to gatekeep who’s “really” trans? Both. It is language that is generally only used by plurals[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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Please let me know if this is an invasive or rude question to ask but are you professionally diagnosed (not sure if that is the correct term to use so I apologize) as a system? If so, how would one go about getting that professionally diagnosed?

by on January 18, 2023 at 2:23 am
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Hi anon! This question isn’t rude, though it is a little invasive. We don’t mind though, and are happy to answer you. Due to our specific experience of child abuse, followed by our experience of poverty through you adulthood in[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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Please delete this if you don’t feel comfy answering Do all of your alters share the same opinions about shipping as the main ones who run this blog?

by on January 18, 2023 at 1:09 am
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Hi anon! Thanks for the question! ♦️ First off (and we will probably add this to our bio) “alter” is a strictly clinical term that applies specifically to members of a DID system or other plural system under a clinical[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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How do you deal with having DID and other DID/OSDD blogs are vehemently against proshipping. Cause…it’s been difficult to find…blogs to relate to, i just don’t want to be hated as a system who encourages proshipping. (I block the blogs, of course.)

by on January 14, 2023 at 3:39 am
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We don’t participate in the DID/OSDD community, because we don’t have DID or OSDD and as a pro-endo mixed origin system we are largely unwelcome in these spaces in general. We find that pro-endo and origin ambivalent plurals are much[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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Heyyy, sorry to ask you this but we aren’t sure where else to ask.(Well, we DO, but you& were the first people we could think of.)Do you all use Mastodon at all? We wanna move servers/instances but everything we find seems very, uh, anti-fiction. And we’re worried that if something ends up being pro-fiction it’ll also end up being anti-endogenic and whatnot, and you all seem to know what you’re doing at least when it comes to Tumblr where we do see you around.We aren’t even sure how well a browser search would do since it’s. You know. Mastodon. That we’re asking about. And we don’t wanna hop onto the main .social instance because that’s an unmoderated nightmare iwrc.

by on January 10, 2023 at 6:14 pm
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We don’t currently use mastodon, but we’d be open to learning how to use it as well, if fandom ends up migrating toward that direction. I’ve heard of proship mastodon instances, but the major one is closed to new entries[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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Your blog has made me sit and wonder if maybe the odd connections I’ve felt to specific characters were really just the Autism or maybe if they were some kind of other connection. I ache for them. I ache to be near them, to touch them, to see and feel and hear them as they are, beautiful and ugly and kind and cruel. Some I see myself in; others I see like old, ancient friends from times past. I’m also learning to engage with potential headmates. I’ve heard things, sometimes, when I lay down to sleep. Nothing big, but…it’s something, right? And there’s the time, a few months ago, when I heard someone say “Psst – I’m still here”. I got so excited about that…I should have been scared, but I kept hoping I’d hear her again.I never did, though…that’s depressing.
– πŸ‰πŸ’Œ

by on January 10, 2023 at 6:03 pm
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It sounds like you’re on a journey of self discovery, and we are here for you! Here are some resources that might help you sort things out. our post from the other day about contacting headmates. fictionkin.org: a resource for[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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so i’m a little apprehensive to say anything about this, because i feel like i’m just appropriating real trauma and real problems, but a couple of years back i had a friend group that gave me the space to like, try functioning as a system (i really can’t think of the proper term for this, apologies), and it really did something for me. it’s hard to figure out the proper words for things, but it sort of did feel like i was shifting alters and actually acknowledging that and communicating with them was really helpful for me, and it was the most mentally healthy that i’ve felt in a really long time. but i stopped doing it once i left that friend group because they then told me i was faking it (none of those friends were systems, none even had any knowledge on mental health beyond adhd tiktok and the like). i genuinely feel a lot of guilt and shame saying this though, because i have a lot of friends who are plural/systems and i feel like i’m doing things that i shouldn’t, that aren’t for me. this was mostly a ramble bc this is really hard for me to talk about but i just wanted you to know that your posts about plurality and talking to people who are new to understanding their systems and everything regarding it are extremely comforting to read even as someone who has no idea if they are plural or not. thank you for your time <3

by on January 6, 2023 at 2:54 pm
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Anon, I am so sorry that your former friends abused your trust, isolated, exiled, and fakeclaimed you. You did not do anything to deserve that treatment. I hope you will listen to me when I say this to you. If[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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I wanted to ask, since you guys are the only system/fictionkin blog I know about.Warning here, this one’s…really long. I’m up way past my bedtime and I’m feeling weird.Would you say that feeling like you’ve “popped” into existence is a system/fictionkin thing? Or feeling there are just…supposed to be people there. You know somewhere deep down your mind is not supposed to be this quiet, but no matter what you never feel more than a vague “My name is no longer my name, this body isn’t mine, these morals are not my own”.It’s all so exhausting and confusing and lately I’ve been having the same kinds of feelings I used to when I was a kid, back before someone shamed me for using “imaginary friends” to cope with my emotions and the way I tried to process them.I had…characters, I guess? These people I would imagine. They always felt kinda…real? Kinda like if I got into my mind somehow, they’d…be there. But one was different. One was…dangerous. and she didn’t even exist until before that person shamed me.I named her Queen. She was a young woman, maybe even a teen, but she was…mean. She was nasty. I don’t even call her a character or a bad reaction because it was like pressing a panic button and watching somebody else do…things. I won’t…get into it here, but she was mean to my friends. To the people I cared about. She’d pick a fight with whoever was triggering my panic attacks, and play by really weird rules, using anything she could to bully them. I didn’t lose consciousness, but I didn’t feel…in control?As I got older, I learned to cope with those episodes (mostly) and turned my responses inwards (“How could you do this to me” became “What did I do to deserve this?”, etc), which left me depressed instead of scared and angry. Maybe that’s why, her “emotional trigger” stopped existing. It still feels like she’s trying to inch up on me when I do get upset, though…I’m kind of scared.I’m sorry this got so long. It’s like…2:30 in the morning and I’m alone in the dark and I feel so weirdly…not alone, but silent. Like there’s something wrong. I’m not supposed to be alone, if that makes sense? It feels like I’ve lost something.
– πŸ‰πŸ’Œ

by on January 3, 2023 at 5:57 pm
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Hi anon! Thank you for sharing all this with us, it sounds like you have a lot on your mind and are going through a tough time. It also sounds like you should definitely look further into plurality– I wouldn’t[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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hi feel free 2 delete if u dont want 2 answer but </3 is it possible to be plural without having DID or OSDD? i’ve been trying 2 figure some things out recently, and a few days ago while i was talking to one of my friends about this they recommended i talk to one of their system friends about it which confused me since, as far as i know, i don’t have DID / OSDD;but－ i have… like, “people” in my head that i regularly like, talk with… and they have names, personalities, interests, ect; they have so many things about themselves that i only know from them telling me, that it’s reached a point where i can’t really write them off as nothing important;i mean, awhile ago, one of my friends jokingly asked me to say hello to one of them and they actually responded without any prompting, just on their own!!! which is, admittedly, kind of what’s triggering this ask, lol… πŸ˜“im kind of just rambling rn im very sorry i don’t know if this makes much sense, im just a bit very much confused, really, haha

by on January 1, 2023 at 4:40 pm
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Anon, it is possible to be plural without having DID or OSDD. DID and OSDD are disorders that cause plurality, but they are not the only causes of plurality, it can stem from many different sources, both psychological and spiritual.[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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Did I ever tell you about the shit I saw about how shipping a character with his alternate personality was problematic for being selfcest or β€œpseudo-incest”? Not a thought spared as to how they were different or how some of the many systems I’ve met date within each other orz

by on December 16, 2022 at 7:47 pm
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Yeah I saw this in the Moon Knight fandom. I have also seen antis say this to real-ass plurals like me, that we were in some kind is incestuous relationship for dating in-system. As if in-system relationships aren’t incredibly common

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God, that comment about systems not being proshippers pisses me off. How can anyone just… invalidate other’s traumas like that? I don’t know a lot about syscourse and stuff, but me being a proshipper doesn’t make me less valid. Even though most in my system are more neutral on the matter (only one other actually actively cares about it and the rest focus on other stuff) it’s like… idk. Just feels like a really spiteful blow, you know?

by on December 10, 2022 at 5:48 pm
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It’s absolutely spiteful and dismissive; and not far out of step with the other behavior we see out of antis. Basically, if an anti doesn’t like you, your trauma and your identity don’t matter to them, and are free game[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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by on December 9, 2022 at 12:32 am
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thelunastusco: Hi, an β€œendogenic” refresher course, right here! 1. We introduced the term β€œendogenic” into the community August 2014, along with some other terms! It was in response to exclusionists (wrongly) complaining about β€œsystems without DID” using β€œtheir words”. It[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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by on November 6, 2022 at 2:18 pm
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Sinister System coffee preference: We all drink a lot of coffee but uh, we have some differences of opinion 🀣 β˜• Toko: any coffee, with cream and sugar/sugar substitutes, with caramel or peppermint β˜• Harry: espresso drinks: cappuccino, frappes, etc[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…

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